Was it impossible?... i dont think so :)

Was it impossible?... i dont think so :)

      

            An old saying always bothered me,"once a loner, always a loner", but that day i was too sober to think otherwise, i always noticed my friends cribbing about their gal/boy friend, crying their eyes out when things didn't go well and laughing their asses out sarcastically when they would see their ex's with other major screw up bf's {they were always referred to as not better then them :P }, anyways i would always look back upon my "great friends" with pity and disgust when they would go through this phase at times but deep down i too was suffering, suffering form loneliness and an aching, or rather a craving for a better half, i would always put forth a concrete image to stand out from the crowd.... little did i know that soon things were about to change

          It started a year ago, i had recently been through a major disaster in life, and as usual had done my best to do better{failing to succeed}, by then i needed a diversion "real bad", she was a common friend in front of whom i always made it a point to make my presence felt but being a green horn in flirting sure made me look more like a lunatic back then, at a point of time i had almost mounted enough courage to talk to her politely but the moment i opened my mouth it became a disaster, the situation was two of my dear friends would always  meet up at a common hangout where we would always be there along with them to make a diversion if at all some similar face pops out of the blue, we would decoy the situation escorting the two to safety, that is all thanks too narrow minded Indian mentality!, which i wont completely blame was i able to come across her coz of it, aah.. yaa the incident- well as the two love birds wanted to talk something privately, hence i thought it would be a better idea too just give then some space, thinking so i acted and ended up quoting- "lets give them a while, why don't we hang out for a while till they are done"... in my mind theses words seemed to perfectly fit into the moment but out in the open it seemed to me as if i was a step away from america dropping a mini atomic bomb on my head instead of Hiroshima Nagasaki, anyways that moment passed away with me embarrassing myself and Ms "a" getting a heads on lead about my devilish intentions .

          The forthcoming day as i opened my Facebook account i came across a similar face, "ms.a" was on Facebook!!,,, the very next moment i sent her a friend request which was duly accepted withing the next few hours, though i couldn't catch her online for the next week of soo i always hoped that something would happen so i could break the ice and tell her, but doing soo at that moment would mite as well tag me as a desperate person with no good intentions.... anyways a week passed by and we had by then started chatting casually, i found myself really into her.... she was quiet a unique kind of a person who maintained quiet a balance between being a normal person and an extrovert.... she was someone who would rather share all her stories thank rather keep to herself, she would always prefer referring her glass as half full rather than half empty, she was quite someone when i tried my way flirting with her, she knew about it {my flirting sucked!}, but coz of our mutual friend i was able to know her likes an dislikes which weren't known to mee, then a day came when i realized that i couldn't use this platform for overall communication and on a broader perspective requested for her number so we could text each other.... in the beginning i was quiet reluctant to ask as i felt she mite tag me a weirdo n block me... but if i had to take the idea of a relationship any further this was a very important milestone for me, as i built up the courage to ask for her number all i could thing off was what if she says 'no', what if all my effort goes waste..... this thing was very crucial and thus made my delay my plans by another week.... as i was getting restless, one day at the end of out chatting session as she was about to leave i asked her

"do u have s cell phone "-i asked her

she replied-"yes?"

"does it have a number"

her reply-"obviously"

"can i please have it?"

       then i felt she was quiet stunned for a moment as i could see the typing icon but no reply on the chat-box for the next 5 mins, after a while i realized it was time to leave, as i got up to leave my chatbox binged... "why do u want my no?"

i was speechless-"jus like that", i said

"i dont give my number to someone jus like that" replied she

at this point i was on the verge of hurting myself pretty bad for my hasty nature or rushing upto things....

the next message binged-"wait for some days, ill give it to you :)"

this was something which sounded consoling, but at the same time landed a fear in my brain that she mite be stalling me.... with mixed feelings i bid her farewell on that day... guessing that she mite block me off her FB account after this date...

          The next day i was not soo eager too goo online as i felt that there was no use at all.... bt as usual the addiction made me switch on ma PC and long into Facebook... as i went through the online friends menu i saw that Ms.A was online, thus she hadnt deleted me...

i started chatting with her too formally that day coz of which she within a few moments found something amiss that day, i requested her to forget my plea for her number if it mite harm our friendship in any way....

at that she told me that she was fine with sharing her number with me, the only thing stopping her was coz i was new to her and she wanted to know me better.... that was a great relief for me.... by now i had realised that somewhat she was unknowingly playing a vital role in my life and i was getting dragged closer to her every moment.... that very evening i got her number.... i had told her

"the day you feel like giving me your number just message me on 966****708"

upon which she had replied with a text smiley...

days passed with us chatting and forwarding messages to each other... nights peaked after me reading a goodnight message from her... days dawned with me reading a good morning message

{yaa she was an early riser!}[quiet my opposite :D]

i had started to know her better by now.... she was quiet disciplined yet dint fail to strike a balance of humor and laughter in our conversations.... the day came when i proposed her, it wasn't nearby but it wasn't that far off either.... but thats a totally different story which i would share some other day...

till next time folks, have a great time till denn , bye... :)